Life often perplexes me. I sometimes wish that I knew what I know now when I was a mere 16 year old. Sometimes I think life should come with a user-friendly manual. Then again, I guess life has a plan….and there is some reason why we live and learn. Because we certainly do don’t we. It absolutely amazes me what I learn nearly every single day. Nearly every day, every minute, something just blows my mind about life and people. I guess my work means I come into contact with a lot of situations that most people wouldn’t have to deal with. I never really stopped to think about how stressful my particular area of work is. But it is. It really is. We deal with some absolutely tragic situations on a daily basis. Yet to us it just becomes sort of the ‘norm’ because it’s our work. I think the way I have coped is just by not thinking too much about the effect it must have on people. If I did, I think I would become seriously weighed down with a load more crap. Maybe now the stress is getting to me a wee bit. Maybe. I have had 2 particular situations in the past couple of months which have brought me to tears at work, and let me say something – that has never happened before. I was just really touched by these 2 particular stories. They both involved young people, and by golly they struck a major chord with me for some reason.
It just blows my mind that we as people can stuff so many things up by making one wrong decision. We can ruin/change our lives forever, plus the lives of our families/friends, just because of ONE thoughtless decision. One stupid moment. Which will stay with us for a lifetime. How is it fair that some people get such a crap deal with life yet others seem to sail on through? How is that good for anyone? I guess I am just really questioning the point of life with all the crap that we see on a daily basis. Not one single soul I have met has ‘deserved’ what is happening to them. Not at all. So why do they get dealt the crap hand? What is wrong with the world? What is wrong with life? Hmmmm. Gosh. Getting all deep and meaningful.
Hmmmm, this makes me feel very superficial. I guess everyone’s concerns and issues are relative. When life is normally swell, it can be seemingly trivial things that get us down. Whereas others who deal with so many blows, seem to cope with more crap than I could ever imagine. Thank you for bringing me back to earth Bec. xx